Small Things with Great Love

Unbelievable

May 20, 2009 at 2:19 am (Uncategorized)

I am dumbfounded by my life.  

Over the last couple of days, I have found myself in situations that seem ludicrous. 

1.  This morning I sat across the table from several candidates who have begun their campaigns for Georgia’s office of Governor.  They were articulating the reasons why they thought they would make an excellent leader for the peach state and how Georgia would be different if they were in charge.  They easily slid across extremely complex issues and solutions to those issues.  I was a part of a panel of 6 people asking the questions.  ”If you were governor, what steps would you make to pass legislation to decrease demand for the commercial sexual exploitation of our children?  And how would you provide dollars for treatment for this industry’s victims?”  I sat next to well-accomplished, well-spoken leaders of the faith community who are not only interested in increasing the number of people in their pews, but also in instigating change in their world every means possible, one of those being government.  They spoke with broad knowledge of influencing, if not holding public office themselves through the years.  In that moment, I felt like a joke.  The Secretary of State sat in front of me, and I had no idea what her job is.  I am a 26 year old, non-profit servant, with a title much larger than her qualifications.  Unbelievable.  It is unbelievable that I find myself in a place of leadership, but I have nothing to offer.  I only pray that God would see my inadequacies, fill my mouth with wisdom and influence through me.  

2.  Two days ago, I sat face to face with a child who was manipulated and forced to sell her virginity in order to save a family member.  As she told her crippling story, her face showed no signs of a realization of the dramatic injustice that her life represents.  She had no idea that she is a survivor of an atrocity.  As I thought through her situation, it was unbelievable to me that someone has that story.  I tried to put myself in her place.  I couldn’t imagine it.  Unbelievable.  

3.  I have a friend who just had a baby.  She is younger than me, and I have watched her like a hawk as she has gone through this whole experience.  It has been amazing to see her go from a beautiful, young, vivacious woman to a beautiful, young, vivacious mother.  In some ways, things haven’t changed at all.  In other ways, everything has changed for her.  I have seen her baby grow too.  She is beginning to be aware and express her desires more clearly.  She is growing longer and bigger.  It is just unbelievable to think that this child came from my friend and her husband.  And it is utterly believable to think that it could happen to me too one day.  The whole process of growing a family truly seems unfathomable to me.  Just unbelievable.  

4.  As I think of the unbelievable things in my life, I have to mention the most unbelievable thing.  Redemption.  It’s so hard for me to actually wrap my mind around how a relationship with Jesus Christ has taken my life from the pit.  My mourning has been replaced with dancing.  And that is unbelievable.  I cannot imagine the depth of mercy that it must have taken to pick me up.  It is extremely difficult for me to actually conceptualize why God would choose to save my life.  Unbelievable.  But I am grateful.  And I will live in the unbelievable truth of my own redemption through Christ’s death and life.